a beginning

play of words

curiosity

tension, of giving me what I need
providing what I naturally crave
and withdrawing at just the right moment

keeping the engine running
the spirit engaged

the mind wondering
hope stilled

all senses alert

Analysis: States of Flow and Neurotransmitters

Flow

The key is to apply the ideas behind the research on states of flow to the personal life and projects. These are the 17 flow triggers, as explained by Steven Kotler. My task shall be to create these triggers, or attempt to as closely as possible, by consiously accessing my current situation - social, personal and work environments. Some will be easier than others, but practice and awareness should help. For the factors outside of my control, I will try to enter into situations and environments that emiliate these triggers - invite them in. 

Internal strategies to draw attention into the present moment:

• Intensely Focused Attention – One of the primary purposes of flow state is to help you focus on a particular task, however, to hack into the flow state in the first place, you must be in a position that allows you to strongly focus your attention to your goals. This also means, multi-tasking is out. Flow demands singular and solitude actio 

• Clear Goals – When you have clear goals, your mind doesn’t have to wonder what to do next. You know what you’re doing and why you’re doing it. Also, don’t focus on the finish line, focus on running the race, the NOW, the present moment. Many are getting distracted by their past, future, or self. Focus on the clarity of your goals. It gives you certainty. 

• Immediate Feedback – This trigger is a partner of clear goals. Clear goals tells us what we’re doing, immediate feedback tells us how to do it better. If we know how to improve performance in real time, the mind doesn’t go off in search of clues for betterment. The Challenge/Skill Ratio – You may have heard about the concept of stress curve where there is a scale of low stress and low performance. At the other end, is the high stress and low performance but in the middle of the scale is the optimal level of stress correlating to peak performance. The Flow Challenge/Skill ratio exists near (but not on) the midline between boredom and anxiety. We need a progressive balance between boredom and anxiety or tension and relaxation. If you can keep yourself in that sweet spot, then you can drive attention into the present and maximize the amount of flow in your sports career.

Environmental triggers:

• High Consequences – If your neck is on the line then you are driven into the zone. An athlete, big wave surfer for example, may need to drop into a 50 foot wave to pull this trigger. But the shy guys may only need to cross the room and speak to an attractive woman to pull this trigger. This doesn’t always mean physical danger, this can also be emotional, mental and social risk. You must be willing to take risks. It’s that sense of adventure and potential for failure that will drive you. 

• Rich Environment – This means an environment with lots of novelty, unpredictability and complexity. Novelty means surrounding yourself with a rich environment that involves finding things that will catch and keep your attention. Unpredictability means being able to step outside your comfort zone and facing the unknown. While complexity means increasing the depth and breadth of your knowledge by seeking out information from many different sources or view points.

• Deep Embodiment – This means total physical awareness. When you can harness the power of your whole body paying attention to the task at hand, you will feel unstoppable. This also means paying attention to multiple sensory streams at once. Not only our 5 senses but also our proprioception and vestibular awareness. 

Creativity flow:

• Pattern Recognition – the brain’s ability to break down existing patterns, colors, data, shapes, movements, sounds, concepts, successes, risks, failures, etc., and create new ideas using those patterns by linking new ideas, and

• Risk-Taking – the courage to bring those new ideas into the world. Will the new concept be well received or will it be scanned? All creativity requires an element of risk and courage.

Group flow:

• Serious Concentration – In extreme sports for example, concentration is highly required or injury or even death could happen. You need to be aware of your teammates and opponents. If they lose focus and start thinking about what it is for dinner, or other things, they’ll quickly be overrun. It can also help to ensure that everyone has their maximum attention to the here and now. Blocking off other distractions. 

• Shared, Clear Goals – Groups need to be clear about what their collective goal is in order for the flow state to be achieved. Group flow is a progressive balancing act. Creating a goal that provides enough focus so each team member can tell when they are close to a solution, but one that is open enough for creativity to exist. 

• Good Communication – A group flow needs constant communication. Conversation must flow forward. Listen closely on what being said, accept it, and build upon it. Nothing blocks flow more than ignoring or negating a group member. 

• Familiarity – A sports team may compose of a group with different languages, cultures and belief but everyone needs to be familiar with each other. Everyone needs to share a common language, a shared knowledge base and communication style based on unspoken understandings. There must be unity, in thoughts and in action. Everyone must be on the same page, and, when novel insights arise, momentum is not lost due to the need for lengthy explanation. 

• Equal Participation and Skill Level – When you have a team with equal role in the project, flow is most likely to happen in your group. Teamwork is the key, and everyone must be involved. All members should have similar skill levels. 

• Risk – It applies to groups in the same way that it applies to individuals. When there is an element of risk, people are more motivated to work hard, and make things happen. Without challenges, the tasks may appear boring. There’s also no creativity without failure, and there’s no group flow without the risk of failure. This risk can’t be just physical, it also applies to mental, creative, etc.

• Sense of Control – It’s important to combine autonomy (being free to do what you want) with competence (being good at what you do) in group flow. Whatever the sports situation you are in, getting to choose your own challenges and having the necessary skills to surmount them is beneficial. 

• Close Listening – When you are listening closely to the present conversation, your responses will flow, and conversation will progress naturally. Innovation shouldn’t be blocked in a group flow. But if one or more team members are talking simultaneously, you keep yourselves away from listening to what is really said and working from there. 

• Always Say Yes – Now, don’t mistake this for always saying yes to everything. This means that interactions should be additive more than argumentative. This element is about being open to try new things, even if they sound like a bad idea. All input into the group should be additive, not negative. The goal is the momentum, togetherness, and innovation that comes from intensifying each other’s ideas and actions.

Neurotransmitters and diet:

DOPAMINE: Drive and focus leading to motivation

• Tyrosine can be found in most animal food products. Other foods that increase dopamine include avocado, green leafy vegetables, apples, beets, chocolate, oatmeal, nuts, and seeds.

• Coffee and green tea increase dopamine. Coffee consumption can inhibit other neurotransmitters so the use should be moderate

• Acetyl-l-tyrosine, a highly absorbable form of tyrosine that readily crosses the blood-brain barrier into the brain. 

• Citicoline, curcumin, Mucuna pruriens (velvet bean or cowhage), phosphatidylserine, and Ginkgo biloba.

• Physical activity and especially meditation help

• And since dopamine is released when you accomplish a goal, taking on new challenges helps raise dopamine levels - thus breaking down your long-range plans into short-term goals.

SEROTONIN: happiness

• Tryptophan is available in protein rich foods, such as eggs. Best strategy: each protein rich foods, then eat carbs alone to release the substance. Before sleep, eat small carbs, clean and not too fatty. 

• Supplements that can assist include SAM-e, B complex vitamins, l-theanine, omega-3 essential fatty acids, magnesium and the adaptogenic herb Rhodiola rosea.

Acetylcholine: memory and learning

• Eggs, eggs, eggs

• Other supplements that naturally increase acetylcholine levels are huperzine-A, derived from Chinese club moss, and galantamine, derived from the snowdrop flower.

GABA: Relaxation

• Bananas, broccoli, brown rice, citrus fruit, fish, lentils, nuts, oats, organ meats, spinach, and whole grains are among the best foods for increasing GABA.

• Taurine, the amino acid precursor of GABA that also activates GABA receptors in the brain.

• Other GABA-boosting supplements include magnesium, l-theanine, and kava.

• All kinds of exercise can increase GABA, but yoga stands out

OXYTOCIN: love drug

• released during sex, breast-feeding

• easiest way to raise it is by receiving hugs (or having sex, if the option is available!)

• physical touch, connected eye-contact

Experiment: flow + growth + fulfillment

Many times I have heard "Change your thoughts and you will change your life" statement. Before I processed and internalized it, it was a little more than sounds put together into a coherent phrase.

Since turning 30, I've been feeling the pressure to have the vision of my life fast-forwarded into my present. Fun and games can certainly (should!) continue into my deep adulthood, but it is time to put all the acquired self-knowledge and all the experience together and make things happen. Faster, better, and with the meaning and significance that makes life worth living.

I shall commence a little experiment of self-improvement, based on some ideas and research. I will be my own guinea pig, and I will do what I struggle to do in my daily life - follow through consistently and record data. Since this project is for self-improvement, the means to realize it shall become embedded into this goal.

The idea is simple. For 30 days (arbitrary, I know - but we are accustomed to calendars; I break with the convention by starting it on the 15th of the month), I will employ various techniques outlined below, and record (somewhat subjectively, since there is no good way to measure this in a more scientific fashoin) in the following list daily results.

Techniques to improve the brain fuction through addressing neurotransmitters and through bettering learning tactics, to induce the state of flow (mental, physical, social), and to create more mental/spiritual/physical balance:

• Dietary (including elements for better neurotransmitter funcion, better sleep pattern, cleaner and more efficient system)
• Psychological and spiritual (meditation, nightly mantra, morning power poses and mirror exercises)
• Physical maintenance and challenges
• Disciplinary: new habits and new skills

Daily I will measure the following with a basic scale from 1 to 5:

• MOOD
• SLEEP
• ANXIETY LEVEL
• PRODUCTIVITY
• MOTIVATION
• ENERGY LEVEL
• MEMORY & CONCENTRATION
• LEARNING & EFFECTIVENESS
• PHYSICAL PERFORMANCE
• PAIN
• CREATIVITY

Chivalry is Dead

Grand! Epic! And dramatic!
Drumroll please, dim the lights because the show's about to begin.
Big phrases followed by bigger gestures, all to entice and inspire.
Forgotten concepts like chivalry, romantic sacrifice, rock-solid principles,
Words given to be upheld, not dispersed,
Startling courage and unwavering beliefs.
It's all on the screen. Mesmerizing, drawing you in.
Wrtitten and produced by masterful manipulators of the human mind.
All this can exist in your transient reality of snap judgments,
Endless doubts and fearful actions bound to confusion and the all-powerful king,
Instinct of Self Preservation.
Who would die for their love? Who'd jump in front of a bullet?
Who'd put their word and honour above all?

The screen hypnotizes, luring to believe that Big Love and Big Gestures
Can happen to you...
Is it a kind delusion, put over you like bubble wrap?
Is it alike Chinese torture, drop by drop stamping your brain and imagination
Sheep going off the cliff
Mad men fully committed to their madness
Chasing Honour, Love, Faith

Chivalry is dead. And love's just a word.

Seven Commandments

Don't weight your words

So carefully that they remain unsaid, unexpressed, unfelt,

In the wasteland of unrealized desires and missed chances.  

Strut your stuff

Like a middle-aged voluptuous Cuban goddess

Passing like a proud vessel down the street,

The sea of gazes part before her. 

Care, a little or a lot

Don't let things slip into oblivion 

because it's too much effort otherwise.

Expose yourself

Guarding whatever you have to give

Will wither you to a dried up fruit

That never had the fortune to be tasted. 

Allow your blood to boil 

Move, jump, kick and dance,

React to the flesh that excites and inspires,

To the proximity of hot skin and burning breath. 

Change something, anything

Yourself, the world, to any degree you can,

For the better. Or at least try. 

Fuck being careful

Risks measured on a balance sheet

Will make you plump and limp

Before your time. 

Your Eyes

I'm fascinated by your eyes.

Transparent deep grayish-green

Almond-shaped, traced lightly 

By full chocolate-cream lashes. 

You observe the world discreetly

With the ever-present shades on.

As the frame is raised up,

Secured in your wild tousled curls,

I'm arrested on the spot

By the strength of your gaze,

Open and direct, wisely naive. 

You take the world in,

Reflecting back a version beautified. 

More plentiful and vibrant,

Adding charm to the objects once mundane,

And interactions once dull. 

As intense endless blends of espresso 

Are created from simple beans,

Your glance transforms all into magic. 

Ode ao Vento

Na beira do penhasco,

De braços abertos, acolhendo o vento

Que sopra forte, obstinado e determinado.

Leve-me, purifica-me, salve-me,

Enxugue os pensamentos, delete as preocupações.

Mostra-me a tua força, seja implacável e feroz,

Me assole para me liberar.