The effects of insomnia are multi-fold. I only discovered that after losing the ability to sleep anywhere, anytime and in any position. I often bragged about it, thanking my father's genetic pool for unwittingly blessing me with the talent. Hopefully, this is a temporary predicament - but an interesting experience nonetheless. These are the most obvious states:
- Brain dilution: thoughts become relaxed like the sun-bathers at noon - moving around lazily, exerting only minimal effort. To fish anything useful out of the head when a thought is needed for the daily functions becomes an impossible feat.
- Neutralization: the personality melts into gentle but progressing waves of mellowness. Nothing is overly upsetting, or overly exciting. You begin to live with a philosophical air of unconcerned detachment. It is nice to slow down the habitual rush to this state of calm reflection - but it is not optional.
- Acute memory loss: keys are misplaced, often three times in a row, immediately after they're found. To-do lists are no longer made as an extra aid - they are the only way you manage to get through the day and not forget things like brushing your teeth or calling people back.
- Living in the house of mirrors: self-perception is distorted. You never know what will appear in any reflective surface you pass by. Sometimes you seem obese, even if you haven't eaten in two days, and it's not physically possible. And other times an arm or a neck seem grotesquely disproportionate to the rest of your body. And since you stopped trusting your brain, you're not quite sure which version is correct.
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